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Embrace your writer’s block. It’s nature’s way of preserving trees and your reputation. Listen to it and try to understand its source. Often writer’s block happens because somewhere in your work you’ve lied to yourself and your subconscious won’t let you go any further until you’ve gone back, erased the lie, stated the truth and started over.  ~ José Rivera

Years ago, I read these words in American Theatre Magazine. And though Rivera was offering tips on playwriting, I have thought of this as a metaphor for many relationships over the years…

If I hadn’t lied on p. 9… might we have gotten to a different p. 46…

During today's morning writing practice, I had one of those bone-deep “oh….” moments, when a lie unravels to expose a truth.

I saw where I'd let someone else’s fears outweigh my own sense of the world, and in doing this, I'd allowed an unwarranted layer of shame to accompany me for longer than I care to admit. 

My lie on page 9 was defending something I ought to have celebrated. 

When I realized this, a wash of emotions flooded through me, one toppling over another... until there was a quiet exhale. And in this space of silence, I could hear something else: an invitation to celebrate, really celebrate all of the choices I'd made that changed my story. 

This is my Edna. The voice that finally said in a way I was ready to hear it... Enough.

Edna Mercury is the name I have given to the voice inside me that knows something before I may admit to knowing it. She is emotional-social-sensual-intelligent-spiritual-psychic-attuned-intuitive and willing to speak authentic truths that disrupt status quo and forge paths to impossible places. She is ancient and visionary, elemental and complex. She speaks through others and through me directly in the form of ideas and my state of health and wellness. 

Though we may each call her by a different name, I believe we all have a vibrant inner voice that holds us accountable and helps us navigate our true north.

I'm not certain we can erase our lies as easily in life as we can in writing, but we can take responsibility for them and admit truths in order to move forward, unfettered, in celebration ...

always in motion,

Fia

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  • As I read this, I exhaled and listened, quietly. “Yes. Enough.” The whisper from within me…letting me know how deeply your words, and the words of J. Rivera resonate. With gratitude, thank you.

    Meryl on
  • Perfection. A cledon for me in perfect timing. Thank you, Edna <3

    Leslie on
  • Beautiful, I know she is in there whispering,waiting for me to hear her. I also know I love her. Thank you

    Connie on
  • This message.
    Why is it at times, a lot of times, we know and our fear is louder…

    Thing is, I can hear her whisper…
    she’s pretty persistent :)

    Tracey on
  • Thank you for this!!

    Kathryn on


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